This study is a reflective exploration of the author’s experience as a survivor of spousal suicide within the context of the suicidology literature. The author uses her experiences in heuristic research to question the rationale of concentrating on the differences &/or similarities of people bereaved by suicide versus people bereaved by other modes of death & whether it might be more helpful to compare suicide survivors to each other. Watford also explores the possibility of looking to the prodramata in order to discover potential within-group variability that may shed some light on suicide survivor experiences & grief reactions. (28 refs.)